Maxed Out

So I know I’ve done this nine too many times, but no matter the times I try to fix him, I can’t seem to be satisfied with Max. The world I’ve created, the story I’ve thrown together, none of it works. I feel like I’ve failed Max, failed myself, and failed the expectations I’ve set. Listen, I just want to look at my character and know I can confidently stand behind it, that it’s something I fully agree with, and that I’m satisfied with it. I tried to keep my mind off it for a while know, by working with Billy while I thought about what to do, but all that did was delay the inevitable. I’m not saying I’m going to throw Max in the trash once again, no, I’m just not sure what to do. I’m most likely not going to be posting anything animation-related, and if it is it will probably be using a simple stick figure or one of those combat dummies but the bottom line is I’m trying to move forward here. I already have ideas, but if there’s anything I learned it’s not to immediately jump on the first idea you have.

Speaking of ideas, Max was never really my pride and joy. I made him half-heartedly, gave him a pencil because I thought it would be funny but…people actually liked it. Back then, I felt obligated to push forward with Max, but I quickly found out it was a bad idea. And no, I’m not blaming you for liking him, I’m blaming me for feeling like the word of others is what I should’ve based myself on. That is when I gave up on him, and move to different ideas. Ash, Tenshi, Erinn, none of them worked either. Partly because the agony of never being satisfied lead me to rush into a character just to feel okay again. Then I tried to bare with Max, grow him and grow with him, yet the fact I had to change everything 9+ times and come out with the same feeling of disliking, that it my point here. While every character needs to undergo changes here and there, 9 times and still not liking him? That’s the issue. I’m just tryna take time to think, so I don’t know just exactly how long this will take but I wanted to talk about the issue, even though I’ve never been good at conveying my thoughts.

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