Yknow a few people on the site have done this but I haven’t so , let’s do it

TLDR : I’m gender-fluid (I think…)

I’ve working on myself a ton over the past few years
I used to be a pathetic runt , that due to family issues and much of my environment at the time , I was a stubborn boy
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To give a quick run down on the whole gender fluid aspect of me , I do fluctuate between what I know is essentially my male gender identity and what I feel and know is my , female side

I go really by any pronouns so y’all don’t have to worry about that ig , it’s moreso about how I present myself that I care about , plus I understand that I’m only extremely open about this aspect of myself to my close friends and close friends here
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I didn’t understand nor accept stuff like being gay , being trans , and very much downplayed any issues or problems that , weren’t like my own
For a ton of my life I lived as a dumbass that didn’t accept nor tried to understand anything that wasn’t “normal” to me
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Really until I met milky that is… this is a big thank you post to many of you all that have helped me get to the point where I am today
Milky was basically my first introduction to , a trans person , I knew her before she came out to me and the community as a whole and , at that point in my life ig it kinda hit me that , this isn’t just some grift or for attention , or whatever idiots like Ralph believe
It’s , us , we’re all people
We have different traits , different lives , different paths , different ideas , different experiences , different ideologies and such but , since being with this group I’ve grown to open my mind up and accept that there’s no normality

That no matter what I believe in , my experiences , my intake of information and experience is ungodly small in this world

I’ve grown past old ideas of what it means to be normal and fit in and realized that a ton of those ideas only benefit those who truly do feel comfortable living with them , and that’s not necessarily bad but we’re humans
We’ve grown past the point of not knowing what’s at the edge of the world and needing to rely on some god , some normalcy , some system , just to survive

I personally respect any and all ideologies and beliefs as long as they’re not normal towards oneself or others but setting some baseline as , what should be normal is pretty stupid

Anyways this whole ramble essentially culminates down too…. Not just the fact that I’ve grown to actually learn about and accept (not that my acceptance is the only thing that validates people) my friends , and accept the fact that I too , am quite the quirky idiot….

The gender-fluid uhhhhh , yea
I started exploring myself a few months back with my wife , I cross dressed a ton , still do essentially , I’m not exactly what you’d call the peak of Traditional Masculinity in terms of fashion sense or general presentation (though I am still JACKED) , even before I started exploring my gender identity I wore pretty girly clothing 🤌

That alone clearly isn’t what makes me a dude/girl but as an overall incentive , it definitely did help me gateway into being more comfortable into presenting myself far more femininely and eventually accepting that part of me as true

I legitimately do flip flop between whether I’m a dude or a girl at times so I’ve kinda not cared about the whole pronoun situation as regardless the 3 main sets (he , she , they) describe me anyways

But yea , long winded ramble , thank you to especially cuss , milky , Elena , mellow , Kz , Scott , Larry , swift , stick , and many other friends I’ve had that have accepted me yknow , means a ton