i feel like shit

i dont feel like drawing, i tried and its so hard to get a concept down, or to even make a head or basic shapes

parkour sucks, its getting hard to play because i feel like im becoming shit, which is annoying because ive been playing it every day for the past few months

i played beat saber, cause i finally got refunded for it, and its fun but its hard

i feel like just sitting in bed and being a stupid piece of shit but even then i feel like an even stupider piece of shit and thats not what i want

but not wanting to feel like shit makes me feel even more like shit

i dont like feeling sorry for myself because i know people have it worse so i shouldnt feel sorry for myself when im just hitting a speedbump compared to them

and yet i do

i just wanna not exist to be honest

and i dont want any pity, either

im just making this post because i need to type it out to someone so i can feel like im heeard, which i guess, is asking for pity

so

sorry, cya