guys, im gonna be honest
the reason why im taking a break isnt so i can work on stickfigure bullshits, its because nothing in my life is going my way
i dont know what to do, im at a stand still in my life basically
ive lost my grandparents, my childhood house, my moms best guy friend and his house which i spent a lot of time in as a kid, my moms best girl friend wants to move back to iowa next year, and my mom is starting school to finish her last college class which means shes there, but i cant talk to her often
i feel like ive lost everyone in my life and on top of that, i dont talk to much of my like, 5 friends on roblox since ive moved to steam but even so i feel like the runt there because im the youngest in the groupchat
my best friend, oculus, has a job
my other friend quad, one of the roblox friends is thinking of getting a job too
i havent heard from coll in like, 5 weeks
and everyone else goes to a real school and theyre binded by a schedule where i get to slack off no penalties because im homeschooled
everyone is moving on and growing up except me and i dont know how to process it all
i already have the need to play with my friends or talk to them because when i dont, my brain isnt stimulated and i feel bored, or tired
today infact i took like a 3-5 hours nap out of nowhere
soon enough im gonna be 15 and that means im gonna be pretty much a teenager, and then next year im gonna have to go to high school, which is my first time going to real school since like, i wanna say 4th grade
im not ready to grow up, and i guess thats because i didnt have that great of a childhood because my grandpa was always upset and stressed out dueto whatever, and i was always eating fast food and iw as an ipad kid because he never had the time to cook meals, didnt know how and my grandma was bedridden
over the past year or two i feel like ive really fucked myself over on this site, ive been getting upset over small things like losing with a ratio of 25Ls/0Ws and taking it out on my friends when i dont mean to
everything is moving miles ahead of me, i feel like im being overtaken by stupid emotions and hormones and its just too much to be honest