To be quite honest I think you’re paranoid, your post was about reconciling and being honest about the way you are and trying to make amends, I’m not sure what your most recent post was, from memory it was about you not being mad anymore and apologising for what happened along with explaining the whole incident with your so called suicide.

Bad things happen because they need to happen, without any bad there would be no good, you fail to understand the importance of the negativity in life, rather than blocking it out you need to try and understand and accept it.

Without this happening what if your house actually did burn down because you wasn’t mindful enough and didn’t have this happen to teach you that lesson, you need to see the bigger picture.

Not everything or everyone is against you, you may feel a certain way about your life and the people in it but that doesn’t mean it’s accurate, we respect you and your efforts to make up for your past actions, you’ve said all that you can in my opinion.

Have some respect for yourself, your a good person, a talented one at that.