I understand your concern but similarly to what I said to others requesting, it didn’t feel quite right letting some in.

For you in particular I’m glad you indirectly brought this up. In all honesty I feel as if I could trust you reasonably well enough to join and for things to be nice and tame, the only issue is it feels off as if I am letting a stranger in my home, less intrusive than that but the point remains that it just feels weird letting you in at this time, perhaps in the future, sorry I hope you can understand.