First of all what stickguy said

And, not the worst thing you’ve could’ve done, it may be bad and premature but there is definitely some guy out there who has done much more worse things, you shouldn’t be so hard on yourself over things like this, forgive yourself, you already recognize your actions are bad so that’s a step in the right direction, I mean these things are small compared to everything that happens here weekly, so dont think too hard about it.