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    Milky (but still gay)subscriberocciferuc-winner-lvl3master-noderuc-votercrusaderfeatured-lvl3 2021-09-19 17:04:33 UTC

    You ever just
    Wish
    Someone
    could
    blow your brains out for you

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    • This isn’t a joke I am suffering for real
      I need fucking help but nothing ever helps
      Friends can’t help
      Parents can’t help
      Therapy won’t happen for months

      2021-09-19 17:07:30 UTC 6
      • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)This isn’t a joke I am suffering for real I need fucking hel

        The weeks feel like months
        I’m tired all the time

        2021-09-19 17:09:08 UTC 4
        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)The weeks feel like months I’m tired all the time

          I can’t think straight sometimes what’s going on

          I just want to be able to enjoy what I want to but nothing feels enjoyable

          Why am I typing this on a animation site

          2021-09-19 17:10:09 UTC 3
          • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I can’t think straight sometimes what’s going on I just wan

            because human beings live here, you need to talk to people, and if it helps, get help to spite yourself, the old switcheroo

            2021-09-19 17:13:02 UTC 5
            • Replying to: [Abandoned]because human beings live here, you need to talk to people,

              Everything fuckinf sucks and I just want to kill myself
              All the things I mentioned above
              I’m fucking trans which in turn means my life will suck anyway
              I hate school and I’ll likely never get a good job
              What’s the point in hoping for the future if nothing good will come from it
              I’d rather just end it here

              2021-09-19 17:15:44 UTC 4
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Everything fuckinf sucks and I just want to kill myself All

                …umm

                2021-09-19 17:18:36 UTC 0
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Everything fuckinf sucks and I just want to kill myself All

                naw man, ending your life ain’t the answer take it from me, i was in a time where i was really worried that my parents going to divorce, and i just couldn’t fathom the thought of losing one.

                i didn’t want to live in a life where i couldn’t see both parents so i was going to kill my self, and if i didn’t have second thought i wouldn’t been able to see everything get better

                my point being the bullfuckery never lasts foever, if you end your life you’ll never see the inevitability of things getting better

                2021-09-19 17:21:33 UTC 0
                • Replying to: [Abandoned]naw man, ending your life ain't the answer take it from me,

                  It’s been lasting forever
                  It’s been going on for months and years

                  2021-09-19 17:23:17 UTC 0
                • Replying to: [Abandoned]naw man, ending your life ain't the answer take it from me,

                  also, life ain’t black and white, it’s a (sadly) dark grey

                  everyone suffers, some worst than others, but if it wasn’t for the suckyness no one would appreciate the good

                  2021-09-19 17:24:09 UTC 0
                  • Replying to: [Abandoned]also, life ain't black and white, it's a (sadly) dark grey

                    It seems like I’m all the way on black and never have any good to appreciate and if I do it gets snatched away

                    2021-09-19 17:25:44 UTC 0
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Everything fuckinf sucks and I just want to kill myself All

                I just want to end it

                Nothing ever goes right if something has gone right life just goes hahahahahahaha and fucks it up again

                2021-09-19 17:21:52 UTC 0
                • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I just want to end it Nothing ever goes right if something

                  well id prefer living with the bad than dying with my worst memories repeating over and over, nothing good comes from suicide, people think of it as a release from suffering, but the truth is, it’ll put you in forever abyss of your mistakes (hell), you only have one life, your life is precious, and if you don’t think anything good has happen to you, take a breath and think again, sadness will manipulate you into seeing the worst, when the good is right there in the open.

                  2021-09-19 17:32:04 UTC 0
                  • Replying to: [Abandoned]well id prefer living with the bad than dying with my worst

                    also if you kill yourself ill never forgive you

                    your my friend

                    2021-09-19 17:34:53 UTC 0
                  • Replying to: [Abandoned]well id prefer living with the bad than dying with my worst

                    I’m probably going to hell anyway I’m a fucking sinner for being bisexual and trans according to people

                    2021-09-19 17:35:12 UTC 0
                    • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I’m probably going to hell anyway I’m a fucking sinner for b

                      I’m not religious myself, but I’ll be joining you then if it is real

                      2021-09-19 17:39:20 UTC 0
                    • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I’m probably going to hell anyway I’m a fucking sinner for b

                      don’t think about “the people” what they say doesn’t matter, being yourself isn’t a sin, being yourself is exactly what God wants,

                      you should be upset of mistake you made, that what you life is for, your life is your second, third, fourth fifth, infinite chance to do better.

                      2021-09-19 17:39:33 UTC 0
                      • Replying to: [Abandoned]don't think about "the people" what they say doesn't mat

                        I guess
                        I don’t know anymore

                        Why would religion hate it if it isn’t what god really thinks nothing make sense

                        2021-09-19 17:40:32 UTC 0
                        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I guess I don’t know anymore Why would religion hate it if

                          Religion is the truth, but when written the truth can often mix with the writers beliefs

                          its okay to be confused, just know that we’re here for you.

                          its going to be okay, it always will

                          2021-09-19 17:42:12 UTC 0
                          • Replying to: [Abandoned]Religion is the truth, but when written the truth can often

                            it’s always not okay

                            2021-09-19 17:43:39 UTC 0
                            • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)it’s always not okay

                              then make it okay, its not up to fate or chance,

                              only you have the power, your strong, loved, and respected, deny it all you want, but its true

                              2021-09-19 17:47:38 UTC 0
                        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I guess I don’t know anymore Why would religion hate it if

                          That’s why I abandoned it, I chose to make my own sense of life
                          Being told what’s right and what’s wrong, how to live my own life, it just didn’t sit well with me
                          I’m not saying that you have to do the same, but take life into your own hands, do what feels right to you
                          I’ll support you all the way

                          2021-09-19 17:43:44 UTC 0
                        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I guess I don’t know anymore Why would religion hate it if

                          Pink no

                          Listen life can be a real crap hole sometimes, but fight through it. It can be one of those days, but when the past brings you down never turn back

                          Keep your eyes moving forward, show people what your made of because I know you and you’re better than this

                          Who cares what people think? You can be old young, race one race two number 6 number 4 add tomato I don’t care what you are just ignore everyone else

                          If you just plug your ears and ignore everyone else, you’ll be fine. What can words do if you can’t hear them. You have people that care about you, whether it”s friends family or that one bug that chose not to bite you

                          I care.
                          We care.

                          No one ever got anywhere from feeling down, you gotta push through. It’s trying to swim

                          The water feels heavy and you don’t know how, but learn from others or practice and you’ll float just fine

                          Lost focus and you start to sink. Don’t be that one that sinks, be the floater. Be that one person everyone you know looks up to

                          2021-09-19 17:48:53 UTC 0
                          • Replying to: Cheese BiscuitPink no Listen life can be a real crap hole sometimes, but

                            Everything happens for a reason

                            2021-09-19 17:50:32 UTC 0
                            • Replying to: Cheese BiscuitEverything happens for a reason

                              Regardless of what religion thinks or says, people can be forgiving. God, whoever you believe in, can be forgiving. Don’t let your worst thoughts become your worst reality.

                              “Nothing matters anymore”
                              Find something that does. You were born into this world for a reason. Find that reason, grab it, and make it who you are

                              2021-09-19 17:52:10 UTC 0
                              • Replying to: Cheese BiscuitRegardless of what religion thinks or says, people can be fo

                                Feels like I was born here to be the punching bag of whatever god is out there

                                2021-09-19 17:55:05 UTC 1
                                • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Feels like I was born here to be the punching bag of whateve

                                  Many people say the same thing and in actuality who’s to say there is a god, if there is then perhaps it’s to make you stronger.

                                  Our lives and much of what we do requires pain to move forward, without struggle, pain and fear, our lives are obsolete and mundane.

                                  2021-09-19 18:00:23 UTC 2
                                  • Replying to: Tastylemon16Many people say the same thing and in actuality who’s to say

                                    my life feels obsolete and mundane plus I got all the pain
                                    Lucky me I won the lottery

                                    2021-09-19 18:05:10 UTC 0
                                • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Feels like I was born here to be the punching bag of whateve

                                  Honestly.. I do too

                                  But I’m doing something about it. You should too. Listen, how many times have you ignored a rule? Do that now. So what if life says your a punching bag. Turn life into the punching bag, screw rules. Rules aren’t always key. Sometimes chaos can be good. Find your reason to live on that chaos.

                                  I think I speak for ,any users when I say this: I care about you, your my friend and a heck of an animator. Just know there is people out they’re who care about you, love you, look up to you, me being one of them.

                                  Punching bags aren’t Immortal. Look at it like this

                                  It’ll hurt getting punching, jabbed at. But you’ll break, you’ll snap. All that anger and hate released, you can be free. Life doesn’t hate you anymore, your done. You can truly be free.

                                  Bottom line: fight through the pain

                                  2021-09-19 18:00:54 UTC 0
                                  • Replying to: Cheese BiscuitHonestly.. I do too But I’m doing something about it. You s

                                    I guess

                                    2021-09-19 18:04:25 UTC 1
                                    • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I guess

                                      No no

                                      Uncertainty isn’t good

                                      I need a rock solid, unbreakable “YES”

                                      You did not just spend a decade and a half of your life for nothing, Make. It. Count.

                                      2021-09-19 18:06:54 UTC 0
                        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I guess I don’t know anymore Why would religion hate it if

                          If religion means making yourself unhappy to praise a dude in the clouds then fuck it.

                          Just be you and ignore that superstitious bullshittery.

                          2021-09-19 18:22:12 UTC 0
                          • Replying to: Tastylemon16If religion means making yourself unhappy to praise a dude i

                            I dunno
                            I like the idea of some god out there
                            I just don’t know about religion sometimes

                            2021-09-19 18:24:32 UTC 0
                            • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I dunno I like the idea of some god out there I just don’t k

                              Listen to me Milk

                              The bible and people’s accounts on things aren’t always accurate, depictions of god and the bible were written by different people high on the fumes of religion, chances are, they exaggerated drastically or didn’t fully know what was going on due to the time it was written about.

                              People used to draw the kraken and other mythological creatures only for it to be disproved and claimed as something so innocent.

                              2021-09-19 18:27:39 UTC 0
                              • Replying to: Tastylemon16Listen to me Milk The bible and people’s accounts on things

                                I guess
                                But I belive something is out there
                                And the religion place I go to basically says be a good person and balance religion and life so
                                Idk it’s fine to me

                                2021-09-19 18:31:35 UTC 0
    • I understand things have been one thing after the next for you, shit after shit, no break and as you said, with you being trans and whatnot it only makes life harder.

      But usually it’s important we experience the rough patches to encourage the good parts, there is light at the end of the tunnel Milk, just have faith.

      It’s hard to but we’ve all been there, really we have.

      The more you experience bad things the less you’ll have to as life progresses, you learn more, grow better and stronger. I know this firsthand.

      Good luck to you and remember we all care about your mental health even if we are just users on an animation site, we’re all like family here.

      2021-09-19 17:48:41 UTC 4
      • Replying to: Tastylemon16I understand things have been one thing after the next for y

        The light feels like it’s so dim and so far away
        I can’t handle this

        2021-09-19 17:51:28 UTC 0
        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)The light feels like it’s so dim and so far away I can’t han

          it may be dim and far, but its still there, its still waiting for you

          2021-09-19 17:53:20 UTC 2
          • Replying to: [Abandoned]it may be dim and far, but its still there, its still waitin

            it’s gonna take too long to get there

            I won’t ever get there

            2021-09-19 17:56:00 UTC 0
        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)The light feels like it’s so dim and so far away I can’t han

          It does for everyone, it’s hard to see where your life might lead but just pull through, sooner or later you’ll find the clarity and happiness you’re looking for.

          You say you can’t see any potential job or career for yourself but look at what you’ve accomplished, your animations of the JJBA openings, your character design, abilities etc. Your average Joe can’t do this out of nowhere, it takes skill and creativity to do that.

          If you really do feel suicidal please seek help, never face it alone.

          You don’t see it now but I promise you will do good with your life the more you live it, don’t give up now.

          You’ve already came so far.

          2021-09-19 17:58:36 UTC 2
          • Replying to: Tastylemon16It does for everyone, it’s hard to see where your life might

            I have to wait months for help
            I can’t

            2021-09-19 18:02:14 UTC 0
            • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I have to wait months for help I can’t

              But you can, we all can, together

              2021-09-19 18:03:48 UTC 0
            • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I have to wait months for help I can’t

              No you don’t.

              There are people to speak to at this very moment:

              – Friends
              – Family
              – Us

              Therapy helps but all it is, is advice and scientific professional opinion, often it can be a case of diagnosis and moving to the next person. So long as you have advice, experience and something to look to you should manage.

              Start doing new, going to have some more experiences, getting outside more etc. you’d be surprised how beneficial a simple walk can be.

              We experience difficult things and as humans like to over complicate things but we really are pretty simple.

              2021-09-19 18:10:03 UTC 0
              • Replying to: Tastylemon16No you don’t. There are people to speak to at this very mom

                I’ll give you some personal insight to my own life to back my point up.

                For most of my life I’ve moved houses, made and lost friends, it’s been mediocrity and without sincerity for so long, I was losing help and felt bitter towards so much. I felt bad mentally and grew fat.

                I questioned my existence time and time again, it wasn’t until I feel pretty ill and was bed-ridden a lot of the time, I had some unknown stomach pains.

                As 2020 marched forwards I had a lot of time to kill and so felt inclined to change, my experiences and how so called ‘friends’ made me out wasn’t who I actually was, I knew I could do better and so I put effort in.

                I could barely do any amount of exercise, just pushing 5 push-ups jus about and now to this day after a year of building myself up and having the site propel my into my current life I have grown stronger both physically and mentally.

                I can now do 30 push-ups and whenever something is thrown my way I remind myself how far I’ve come and what actually is affecting me, how can it be averted and what it actually is.

                Our realities feel so overwhelming sometimes but until someone or something shows us the truth, we then realise it was so silly and we’re so much better then that.

                2021-09-19 18:14:48 UTC 1
                • Replying to: Tastylemon16I’ll give you some personal insight to my own life to back m

                  I used ‘push-ups’ as a message to show that if you invest enough effort and time, you can accomplish far beyond what could have been conceived possible before.

                  2021-09-19 18:15:29 UTC 1
                  • Replying to: Tastylemon16I used ‘push-ups’ as a message to show that if you invest en

                    What your saying is true and helpful but it’s hard to accept it sometimes
                    I don’t know

                    2021-09-19 18:26:01 UTC 0
                    • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)What your saying is true and helpful but it’s hard to accept

                      Exactly, I’m glad you’re starting to see it now.

                      I urge you just be you, reflect on who you are, not what you should be made to be.

                      The more you live as you, the more people will respect and understand you, don’t break away.

                      Have confidence in yourself

                      2021-09-19 18:29:19 UTC 0
          • Replying to: Tastylemon16It does for everyone, it’s hard to see where your life might

            I couldn’t have put it better myself
            I knew someone once who was going through a similar situation, and I would’ve told them this if I knew what words to say then
            Most of the time, when it comes to situations like this, I just feel like shit for not being able to help them, even though it isn’t my fault
            There’s nothing I can do and that realisation just hurts kinda
            Helplessness is almost as bad as lonliness

            2021-09-19 18:02:27 UTC 0
            • Replying to: MellowI couldn't have put it better myself I knew someone once wh

              Your a person on the internet it’s not your job to help

              2021-09-19 18:11:35 UTC 0
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Your a person on the internet it’s not your job to help

                Maybe so but we aren’t mindless robots, we’re people too and considering how small the site is and how well we all get along clearly we’re pretty similar in some way, we know your pain and you don’t have to face it alone.

                2021-09-19 18:16:40 UTC 2
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Your a person on the internet it’s not your job to help

                I know that it’s not my job, but that doesn’t change the fact that I want to help
                I’m not obligated to, but it’s something that I want to do
                I don’t see it as something that could be considered as a job, I see it as wanting to help a friend

                2021-09-19 18:17:33 UTC 0
              • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)Your a person on the internet it’s not your job to help

                we want to help

                2021-09-19 18:19:51 UTC 0
        • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)The light feels like it’s so dim and so far away I can’t han

          I know what you mean, but it may brighten up fast.

          2021-09-19 18:09:33 UTC 1
          • Replying to: 🦇🎃K-ZILLA🎃🦇 (Doing Commissions Now)I know what you mean, but it may brighten up fast.

            I doubt it…

            2021-09-19 18:14:30 UTC 0
            • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I doubt it…

              Unless your a fortune teller, you never know milk.

              What if you kill yourself and the next day you would’ve met someone you genuinely care about.

              2021-09-19 18:17:55 UTC 2
              • Replying to: Tastylemon16Unless your a fortune teller, you never know milk. What if

                I just what’s the point in the constant suffering and drowning in the sea of shit going on only for a small breath of air before I have to go back under forever

                2021-09-19 18:21:29 UTC 0
                • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I just what’s the point in the constant suffering and drowni

                  No you don’t.

                  I can’t show you your life and you can’t completely know it yet anyway.

                  I can only say so much to help you, do you want to tell us or me what’s actually happening that’s getting you down? I don’t like to ask people personal questions but I can’t leave you like this.

                  I urge you speak to someone about your problems, your mother, father someone who loves you.

                  No matter how any family member would seem, they only want you to be happy even if it’s not what they would’ve wanted. You can’t not be yourself to please others.

                  You live once, it’s your life, live it with pride.

                  You have way more balls then me your age (I imagine you’re probably 15 or so) I could never have come to a conclusion on who I am, even trying to. That’s got to mean something.

                  2021-09-19 18:25:37 UTC 2
                  • Replying to: Tastylemon16No you don’t. I can’t show you your life and you can’t comp

                    What your saying is very helpful but I don’t even know it’s hard

                    I just wish it woiod stop

                    Evrything in my life is so hard and it sucks and I can’t handle anything anymore I just cant
                    I’m not strong minded

                    2021-09-19 18:29:52 UTC 1
                    • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)What your saying is very helpful but I don’t even know it’s

                      Nobody is, it’s something we just have to live with and develop over time.

                      Even the biggest toughest men cry, it’s not about who is the toughest and mentally strong but instead who can have the confidence to embrace their emotions and listen to them.

                      2021-09-19 19:03:10 UTC 1
                • Replying to: Milky (but still gay)I just what’s the point in the constant suffering and drowni

                  This isn’t my place to talk
                  Others can help you much better than I can

                  2021-09-19 18:28:15 UTC 0