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Mantoshka
2022-04-30 21:58:27 UTC I am at my limit.
This drama, this cesspit. This Evil. Everything.
I see everyone at each others throats, alright, I cannot just sit and watch everyone bash each other anymore! What is this community?! WHAT IS THIS MADNESS?! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?! I AM GENUINELLY APPALED HOW A SMALL COMMUNITY LIKE THIS CAN HAVE SO MUCH LITTLE, TERRIBLE THINGS PACKED INSIDE OF IT!
Worst of all, I have to watch my old friends leave me behind, all lonely and consumed by nothing but growing depression. I never, NEVER asked for this. I just wanted to be friends.. With EVERYONE! EVERYONE!!! The drama is genuinelly making me snap, combined with the mental struggle, this does not help me at all!
So what is my summary? Chaos! Betrayal! And I have to be a part of it! ALL OF IT! I CANNOT EVEN LOOK AT THE MIRROR AND TRUST MYSELF ANYMORE! I spent half of the day, crying my eyes out, succumbed on the ground, because I am scared…. Of what I have become. A monster. A mutant.I dont deserve any praise, I dont deserve friendship. I have done so much, I genuinelly want to apologise to every single person, but I know not everyone will accept my apology. It pains me further.
I used to have so much friends. A lot, and I just wanted everyone to come together. Everyone, so peaceful, so happy! BUT NO! EVERYTHING HAS TO BE FUCKED UP! IM TIRED OF PRETENDING IM FINE, IM NOT, OKAY. IM NOT FINE. I AM RUINED.
All I ask for is forgiveness, and nothing else. Please. I can’t take it anymore. I want to start it all over again. Its very cold, I can barely stop shaking in my basement, punishing myself.
I have nothing left. I feel nothing, empty. Zilch. I have very little hope left that we will be able to fix this mess. I just can’t keep myself up.
JUST WHY. WHY??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I dont feel like I am even typing this, but rather a remnance of my sanity typing it out before I am lost in my insanity again, a brief warning.Drama. Bad. Very Bad.
I never wanted to fight anyone, and I still dont want to fight anyone else.
I apologise. I will apologise even if I will be taken to Heavens gate by the Angels of Death.
I can’t type anymore, Im too cold, so I’ll just stop. Let me freeze. Let me punish myself. I’ll be fine. Worry about yourself. Stop, STOP, STOPSTOPSTOPSTOP. AAAAAAGH
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“lol” said Vuice
“lmao”
Gee, You okay?
genuinely in disbelief in how unshitgiving the comment section is
While I do understand your concern, it seems difficult to discern any sort of meaningful statement when this “drama” rant was posted here to the site without the following:
– Any sort of plausible context
– Explanation on why the post exists or any sort of evidence to help their point (ex. trying to be forgiven)
– A good reason as to why this was posted publicly on the site, rather than just directly consulting it with friends privately or in a manner that won’t essentially crucify themselves on the activity page.
Drama is bad, I’m aware. But this kind of post shouldn’t be posted here in the first place, as this isn’t really the best place to do it. I don’t know what the context is, but from what I assume, this should be a matter that is much better to be dealt with privately, rather than screaming at the brick wall known as http://sticknodes.com/activity.
Allow me to note that I am not defending this kind of behavior shown in the replies in any way, shape, or form. I hate all of you equally. I’m simply just saying something from a neutral standpoint, because I don’t see why or how this kind of post could develop meaningful discussion when it seems to be discourse that doesn’t seem to be known by many of the website’s users.
I just didn’t know what to think of this. Perhaps I have made a mistake.
do you not realize what site you’re on sir
someone could literally post a video of themselves stabbing someone to death and I don’t think anyone would give a shit
I feel so bad for the man, he seems so serious with this post and then everyone is like “ok dnc” lmfaooooo
jesus dude i hope youre fine, feel free to talk about shit if it bugs you cuz you seem to keep it all in and then discharge it all at once which i dont think is healthy