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time to get serious.
recently, since ive been going to training for school leadership and stuff, i havent seen many of my friends
i havent seen them all summer
the only person who talked to me outside of this site has been my s/o and my parents
no one ever reached out, i always had to
almost no one even replied when i texted them
i came to this site as a last minute resort because my parents always make me feel shut out and then get mad when i dont talk
i just needed a break from that.
when i went to training on wednesday, i already saw people with their group of friends
it made me feel really left out because i sat by myself almost the entire time
there were kids i barely even knew there too, and i tried to fit in with them
i felt like i was pushing the boundaries, almost as if no one wanted me around
we got put into groups, all of that stuff
i laughed with some people, overall it was a horrible experience for me
seeing people already in groups of their friends and im just nothingat the beginning of october of last year, i made this account
i needed a place to stay, a place where i could feel safe and know people still liked hanging out with me
i started finding friends here, got my original account back for two days before getting in trouble again
it felt like everything was crumbling down, with my parents being overly worried for me or taking out their frustration on me verbally
it still feels that way
im this close to actually either killing myself or committing a crime i know im going to regret in the future
this site is all i have now, and i hate that it has to be this was
i fucking hate this site with my gut but its all i havemy parents treat me like some kind of joke, which i am
pretty sure i was a mistake or whateveri have a lot of mental issues which they brush off to focus on other problems, like their siblings being sick or going through a divorce instead of their own fucking child!!!
‘oh youre sensitive to sound? we’ll get you a therapist before even talking to you about it and give YOU the phone even though you have trouble talking to people you dont know’
‘oh you’re hyper? why can’t you just calm down for five seconds?’
‘why do you stay up so late? just go to sleep’
‘why are you ignoring me when im talking to you, thats rude’proceeds to give a lecture while also insulting me :’3
‘why are you being so clingy? its not like i’ve abandoned you before’ (fun fact, all of my friends have abandoned me so that probably why but you dont fucking listen!!!)
‘stop telling me what to do, im your mother/father and you dont get to choose whats right and wrong’also cuts me off before i can even fucking talk.
when i get my therapist back im going to be the happiest person in the world you dont even know
reminder that it took them 8 months to finally reach out to one while i was still strugglingthats all i wanted to talk about, im just rlly pissed off
have a nice night
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I feel you, i lived that experience many, many times when i was younger, and just based off that, i wish i could write some extense paragraph about making yourself feel better and shit like that, but since im no profesional story writter, ill just say this.
Never change who you are just to fit in, if you do, those assholes that you call “friends” will simply abandon you once they get bored of you and will find someone to replace you once your gone.
But, if you stay how you are, there will always be people like you that will be more than glad to consider you a friend for life.
Times always get better in the end, and if times havent gotten better, it isnt the end, hold tight, we’re glad to have you in this community.
i actually talked to the guy who they replaced me with and he punched me
i’ll try my best, thanks c:
What the hell
If your friends are willing to replace you with someone who resorts to assault then I definitely wouldn’t hang around with them anymore yeah
You’re in a really shitty situation right now, and if your parents do not care about your well being, we do
Please do not kill yourself or do something that you may regret wacka, suicide is a horrid thing and it’s really shitty that you have the amount of mental strain going on right now to consider that
But I want you to know that many of us, as a site, genuinely care for you. I know it’s said a lot, but that’s only because it’s true. You’ve made a lot of friends here, and while I can’t speak for everyone, I consider you a friend too, and I just want to let you know that I appreciate you
I hope that in some way some of what’s going on can be alleviated, but if not, you can vent here at any time, we’re here for you
Whenever I get lonely, the site is always in the back of my head like the green goblin mask
Seriously tho you make this place a lot better, and your absence would be felt by many. I hope it gets better for you 🫂
I second what outlaw said, be yourself, be good to yourself, don’t completely overhaul your lifestyle just because a little group of folks don’t like you, you are you, who is a good hearted lad. And if folks don’t like that, that’s there issue to sort out. Take care out there wacka, and please don’t do something bad.
i’m very sorry you’re in that type of situation and feeling that way
it’s good to get all of this out to people who can offer help and we’re always here to talk to (even if you hate the site)
me, asry, jade and other people are all here to talk to!!!
we love you, wacka, we’d hate to lose you
No, don’t think about doing that type of stuff wacka
I have a fear of being forgotten and alone and reading this made me sad.
I honestly feel terrible for you.
Please stop thinking of these things.
I haven’t been here very long, but as far as I can tell, you’re a nice person and don’t deserve this.
Hope you feel better Wacka
please wacka, suicide is never the answer, no matter how hard it can get.
I understand that it is a struggle and that it affects your state of mind, and we are here to help you with that dude. you are genuinely a really nice person, your one of my absoloute favourite people here.
stay strong wacka, I’m here If you need to talk more. <3