Larry, I know you and others would not hear it because you feel you cannot but there are better days ahead of you, you may just end up dealing with the rougher part of your life now and something better as time goes by, you don’t know it yet.

Even if things don’t get better, you have the choice to make your life whatever it can be, it is incredibly hard to at some points when things are practically set in stone and your restricted but nobody can restrict you your own mind and usually there is much else available to you to begin to make a change.

As for how, I do not know. For me I find that expressing myself physically helps, if I’m going through the motions, feeling burnt out, I’ll walk or train, or jump rope. It’s your choice how you express yourself but just know that ending it all is not an option, for the sake of those that care for you, think of that. If not for your sake, for theirs, for the ones you care about.