Hi everyone, it’s me. If you’re wondering about what I’ve done in the past 3 years since I last made an activity post on this community (the one about my Koneko Honda OC splash screen update from 2022) and nearly 2 since I published that scene sweep effect for Madness Day 2023, well I’ve actually been lazy and life was in the way. Also today I want to apologize for all of those ignorant and terrible things I’ve said about the Thicc Nodes group being degenerates despite the possibility that they’ve done far less in real life, my hostile complaining to random people about my Smith and Wesson 500 Magnum getting some criticisms about some unrealistic gradients on the trigger that I would fix a couple years later, that suicide GIF of my Koneko OC (at the time named Project 155) shooting herself in the mouth with said S&W 500 just because it was DBZ Stickfigure Day, telling @sbyrnes to piss off just because of the ‘Vote Sean for President’ motto (which I really do apologize to you about, Sean, I should’ve addressed this immediately but it’s most likely too late now), and making a sexist comment on one of @ftlralph‘s posts about an image of a pizza delivery woman with a big chest that he found on X (which at the time was called Twitter) who was wearing something a little to moderately revealing and once again, the person on that Twitter who made that drawing could possibly have done much less than just drawing sexy art that would end up completely harmless in the long run. Here’s a thing to keep in mind, and that’s that these all happened in 2019 when I first joined the community as a teenager, and believe it or not, I’m also afraid to apologize for those things because it could potentially revive old drama that could make newer members of this community and other people think that I’m just lying about my apologies like every other typical YouTuber apology video in existence, and that those things I said still reflect who I am now, but that is clearly not the case. I really am ashamed of who I was back then, and I do still have some trouble communicating with others even if I barely talk to anyone on this site or YouTube anymore, I mean I still have a YouTube channel but it’s currently inactive for like 3 to 4 years now. I wish I could take it back and make amends with you, I wish I could have a higher functioning mindset, I wish I could’ve said sorry to y’all as soon as possible, and I also wish we lived in a world that is more forgiving of ignorances like mine, and it wasn’t like I didn’t try to be respectful about certain stuff here. And despite what I’m saying about forgiveness, I’m not really asking for forgiveness, I understand this, because there isn’t really any excuse for my behavior, I had no excuse back then and I still don’t have one now. I will accept any criticisms you’ll throw at me from now on, and I will also accept to be temporarily suspended from this site if things do go to crap with this post, because right now I don’t care if this also means losing some friends here as well. Until next time, I’ll take care of myself in real life. Good day.