I don’t know half of what you’re even talking about. You’re venting to me and trying to explain… whatever the hell it is, and I haven’t even got a clue what you mean. All I’m getting is that you word things poorly, people get mad at you, and you don’t understand why, nor do you feel apologetic about it. And that’s what’s driving your friends away from you.
Just sounds to me like you lack empathy and only view things from your perspective, not thinking about how other people might feel about the things you say, or even caring for that matter.
Is that meant to be their problem? Are they soft just because you’re not considerate enough? You really think that everyone’s about as tough as you, just because you can take an insult or two? And what if they can’t? Is that their fault?
I’m only gauging what you’re trying to tell me (actually, it feels more like you’re talking to yourself) because you managed to word that poorly like seemingly everything else you say, but it doesn’t feel like I’m too far off from the truth.
Whatever your issue is, don’t go making it a problem for other people too. I don’t pity you for losing your friends if that’s something you managed to bring onto yourself because all that means is that your own character needs working on. I’m not interested in hearing you speak your mind if all you can come up with is inconsiderate babble, so maybe try instead to think about what you say before you say it. I don’t know if anything I say is going to help you, but I wasn’t trying to anyway. I want to see you doing better next time, or not see you at all if it means your behaviour continues. Either works for me.

Yeah it’s weird