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    SillyWizard01subscriberocciferuc-winner-lvl1 2024-01-17 00:14:56 UTC

    i think, i hate my life

    life is getting to be a spiral of just so much bullshit and monotony

    i cant be bothered to keep trying anymore, i just cant

    im setting myself up for disappointment, i mean literally

    i play my stupid parkour game, expecting to be better and then i die over. and over. and over. im expecting something to change when i know its not going to

    i play my compound vr fps game, expecting to get past the first fucking level, and i just cant

    i dont think im truly happy

    i have distractions and i can get moments of “happiness” but im not truly happy

    im not gonna kill myself, if thats what youre wondering

    i think im just gonna stop trying, in all honesty

    i think im just gonna watch youtube and talk to you guys and do my math, and thats all that i can be bothered to do anymore

    im just, a wasted sack of shit, lmao

    im a useless potato, basically

    i cant do anything good that i want to do good except my math

    whatever, man

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    • btw, please dont put this on site log, whoevers doing it

      i dont want your pity, i pity myself enough, i just need an outlet to type this out where someone can listen to me

      2024-01-17 00:18:22 UTC 7
    • Jade, I want you to know that I don’t think of you as anything related to “useless” or “potatoes”
      Sometimes our brains just like to slow down
      you’re a very important person in my life, you’re amazing and creative and although you’re in a rut right now, I want you to know that I care for you, so does willow, so does so many other people in your life
      Remember, tough times never last, only tough people
      and you’re incredibly fucking tough, jade
      I know you’ll get out of that rut
      Ily :3

      2024-01-17 00:34:01 UTC 13
      • Replying to: margotJade, I want you to know that I don’t think of you as anythi

        Please don’t make me cry…….

        2024-01-17 00:53:46 UTC 7
        • Replying to: SillyWizard01Please don't make me cry.......

          oh okay, I’m sorry
          I really mean all of it, you’re the best, jade :3

          god that little “:3” makes things feel insincere yet I can’t help but use it
          it’s like a parasite

          2024-01-17 01:00:47 UTC 6
          • Replying to: margotoh okay, I’m sorry I really mean all of it, you’re the best,

            it is a parasite :3

            2024-01-17 01:01:31 UTC 7
            • Replying to: SillyWizard01it is a parasite :3

              It’s like when you use it once it feeds off of every sentence you make :3

              2024-01-17 01:02:40 UTC 7
              • Replying to: margotIt’s like when you use it once it feeds off of every sentenc

                fr

                2024-01-17 01:03:19 UTC 5
                • Replying to: SillyWizard01fr

                  this sounds like a horror movie concept :3

                  2024-01-17 01:03:50 UTC 6
                  • Replying to: margotthis sounds like a horror movie concept :3

                    it is literally just the game changed

                    2024-01-17 01:11:43 UTC 5
                    • Replying to: SillyWizard01it is literally just the game changed

                      oh
                      oh ewww
                      fitting but ewww

                      2024-01-17 01:12:29 UTC 5
                      • Replying to: margotoh oh ewww fitting but ewww

                        i like it….

                        2024-01-17 01:12:54 UTC 5
                        • Replying to: SillyWizard01i like it....

                          OH NO AHH-
                          nevermind my opinions are irrelevant, it’s not uh
                          not quite my thing but you can enjoy what you enjoy and that rocks :3
                          sorry for being a bit of a dick with the “ewww” thing

                          2024-01-17 01:13:43 UTC 5
                          • Replying to: margotOH NO AHH- nevermind my opinions are irrelevant, it’s not uh

                            oh no i dont care lol

                            2024-01-17 01:20:26 UTC 5
                            • Replying to: SillyWizard01oh no i dont care lol

                              but I care and being insincere and kinda unkind hurts if it don’t apologize
                              it’s just my nature

                              2024-01-17 01:21:37 UTC 6
                              • Replying to: margotbut I care and being insincere and kinda unkind hurts if it

                                you are NOT louise (real)

                                2024-01-17 01:23:05 UTC 4
                                • Replying to: SillyWizard01you are NOT louise (real)

                                  willem is a lot more like me
                                  Louise would very sarcastically make remarks and not apologize (all the while taking the jokes other people say oddly literally)

                                  2024-01-17 01:24:10 UTC 5
                                  • Replying to: margotwillem is a lot more like me Louise would very sarcastically

                                    you ARE willem (Real)

                                    2024-01-17 01:24:28 UTC 5
                                    • Replying to: SillyWizard01you ARE willem (Real)

                                      doesn’t that make me a femboy tho???

                                      2024-01-17 01:24:55 UTC 5
                                      • Replying to: margotdoesn’t that make me a femboy tho???

                                        yes. You know what i do to femboys, don’t you

                                        2024-01-17 01:26:37 UTC 4
                                        • Replying to: SillyWizard01yes. You know what i do to femboys, don't you

                                          you hug them????

                                          2024-01-17 01:27:07 UTC 5
                                          • Replying to: margotyou hug them????

                                            2024-01-17 01:28:55 UTC 5
                                            • Replying to: SillyWizard01

                                              why is he twitching lmao
                                              he doesn’t even finish the smile the gif just looks like he’s being punched in the stomach and taking it like a champ while he stares directly into the camera

                                              2024-01-17 01:29:56 UTC 5
                                              • Replying to: margotwhy is he twitching lmao he doesn’t even finish the smile th

                                                HAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAAHAHAH

                                                oro fr

                                                2024-01-17 01:31:00 UTC 4
                                                • Replying to: SillyWizard01HAHAHHAHHAAHHAHAAHAHAH oro fr

                                                  maniacal laughter
                                                  spooky

                                                  2024-01-17 01:31:50 UTC 5
                                                  • Replying to: margotmaniacal laughter spooky

                                                    I am… evil?

                                                    2024-01-17 01:33:10 UTC 4
                                                    • Replying to: SillyWizard01I am... evil?

                                                      no (unless you want to be)
                                                      everybody needs some cathartic maniacal laughter

                                                      2024-01-17 01:34:57 UTC 5
                                                      • Replying to: margotno (unless you want to be) everybody needs some cathartic ma

                                                        i will be in Verse

                                                        i am evil to my Verse characters

                                                        2024-01-17 01:37:50 UTC 5
                                                        • Replying to: SillyWizard01i will be in Verse i am evil to my Verse characters

                                                          Uroboros Louise is kinda evil
                                                          she has a long road to redemption at the end of the story
                                                          and uh
                                                          I think after the ozymandian massacre people (creidetaires and survivors) know her as the “angel of death”
                                                          I had a thought that uroboros is really just a horror story told from the perspective of the killer and their friends

                                                          2024-01-17 01:41:32 UTC 4
                                                          • Replying to: margotUroboros Louise is kinda evil she has a long road to redempt

                                                            J will be like that tbh too

                                                            me, stealing ideas

                                                            2024-01-17 01:43:32 UTC 4
                                                            • Replying to: SillyWizard01J will be like that tbh too > me, stealing ideas

                                                              I want to explain how that idea works for uroboros though because I think it’s cool :3

                                                              2024-01-17 01:44:03 UTC 4
                                                              • Replying to: margotI want to explain how that idea works for uroboros though be

                                                                i forgot to reply to this ummmm

                                                                pls do

                                                                2024-01-17 02:01:59 UTC 4
    • Dude, I have felt what you have felt. I was once a go lucky guy with aspirations of my own and I was doing new things every day. Then I went into my addiction. I don’t talk about it that much and I don’t plan to talk about it more, but it ruined my life. I’m still trying to come back from it. The past few years I was just going through the motions and trying to get home, then watch YouTube for about 20 minutes and go to bed. Then I repeated that over and over and over for almost 3 years. I just gave up on life, and it gave up on me. But then I found this place, I watched the community and decided to join it, it gave me something new to do, I don’t think I would be alive without you guys, and I mean that. You guys saved me. If it wasn’t for the amazing people I have met on this site, like you, I would still be going through the motions. If you don’t like what you are doing, then you can always try new things, the whole world is out there for you, don’t give up now when the journey has just begun. What I lacked was motivation and a willingness to accomplish my goals. Find yourself and find the goals you want to accomplish. By all means, it will be difficult to find your spirit to do things again, it took me years, and I went back to the way I was again and again. But after hard work and dedication I found my way, for the most part. Find what makes you truly happy, and stop caring about finding happiness, if you do the things, you enjoy and are around people you love and cherish, it will find you. This isn’t advice, and I’m not telling you what to do, I’m just a dude that cares for you. I know that was kind of a weird thing for me to say but it’s true, I’m here for you man, and I think everyone else is here for you too.
      Stay safe out there man.

      Also, you’re not useless, I think your one of the best users on the site and for good reason

      2024-01-17 00:47:30 UTC 11
    • You aren’t a useless potato, You’re a Perfect Flower in a garden

      If you Die, I’m Fucking coming over to you and reviving you

      2024-01-17 02:14:27 UTC 1
    • Aww i’m sorry to hear that i hope you feel better soon!

      2024-01-17 04:25:14 UTC 6