I bid farewell to all of you.

This community has been the best community I’ve ever had the pleasure to be a part of, and I will never forget it. But it’s time for me to focus on myself, come clean, and move forward.

I’ll cut it short; ever since I began my presence here in Sticknodes I’ve lied about something really important, as most sticknodians do, I’ve lied about my age, I’m not 20 I am 17, and I know that most of you don’t give a fuck but for my closest friends, I have nothing to say but that I’m extremely sorry for carrying this lie on for long, I wanted to come clean ever since I began getting the littlest of attention from more people.

Lying about my age was not something I did to capitalize off anyone or to hurt anyone, I did to both protect my identity, be able to be treated more “maturely” and to also partake in activities that benefit the site. This last one being private between me and certain individuals.

It was never my intention to harm the community, and I’ve tried my best to not do so and to thread around carefully with all of its members, although I have had huge mistakes at the beginning of my time here with you lot, I want to believe that I have changed for the better and done more good than harm in the end.

I’ve proactively looked out for our people, ensured that ends were met and that privacy and respect was the norm for every space I’ve moderated / been a part of.

So, to all people that were just my friends, you guys meant a lot to me, and it was amazing knowing that atleast here, I was wanted and liked. It made these years here in the base community amazing, and I would do anything to live them again.

And to the people that were once my closest friends, I want to say sorry. Specially to you two, ToE and Lemon. I know you guys have trusted me with really serious stuff and I can promise that nothing has changed despite the fact you both now know the truth. That being said, I don’t expect forgiveness from either, nor do I expect you guys to still wanna have me around after this. But lying to your faces just makes everything much worse and hurts me way more than being honest.

If anything, I want to thank you both for trusting me, for genuinely worrying about me and being there when I needed someone to just hear me out.

I know that this is a goodbye, and I don’t intend to ever come back, I know I won’t be wanted around. So, Sticknodes, this is my goodbye. Thank you for this 10 years of service, you’re a community I will never forget and that I will maintain with a lot of love deep in my soul. I hope one day this can be forgotten and I can start anew.

I become a year older today

Happy new year!