I think I’m officially dead inside. I’ve lost my mind, I lost my humanity. I’ve lost any feelings I once had… and I’m worried. I’m worried that this secret side of me will bleed through this ever thinning mask that I have almost worn out. I’m worried that my family, my friends…my loved ones will see this monster…this thing that I have become inside a human shell. I don’t want to die. But I wished I never lived. I wish that I didn’t enter anyones life and made it so hard. I wish I never existed, maybe everyone would be happier. I don’t pretend to be a monster…I don’t pretend to be te darkness. I only pretend to be human, because the darkness is all that’s left inside me. All hope and all light is gone. I can’t be saved. And when I lose you all, please remember me in the best way you can…I don’t know how long this mask can stay on. This smile is heavy….I’m so tired…