about the post two hours ago
my parents were yelling at me and i just
couldnt
i broke down right in front of them and it seemed like they couldn’t care less
it was over something small, too

i just wish i knew what was wrong with me
i want an answer so i can at least be normal
im fucking sick of whatever shit my parents are on
why am i the only one getting therapy?

my mom is a fucking alchoholic and gets mad whenever i tell her to STOP FUCKING DRINKING
my dad LOVEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSS to smoke and by this point i might as well sniff sharpies because the second hand smoke is so real.
they are in my top 10 of reasons im going to fucking kill myself and its driving me insane
they have no regard for my mental health when were in the moment
but all of a sudden they give me sympathy AFTER having a mental breakdown in my room?
fuck that, i would rather hang myself than listen to their bulllshit anymore

my mom told me to go play drums before i got on the computer today, but i was feeling drained so i didn’t really play much
she came in to check on me and told ‘eh you can play a little longer’
i went up to her and my dad saying that i just didn’t feel like playing today and she went ‘not my problem’
then things started getting heated and she raised her voice
she told ME (the only person who was barely being able to get a word in) to calm down and watch my tone with her, so i tell her that she was mad at me this morning when im just doing what im supposed to do
my dad starts yelling at me and at this point i want to strangle myself
guess what we were fighting about?
me not ‘trying’ to do things
what the fuck is that supposed to mean? i try all the fucking time to make things right
i try to be funny, i try to be entertaining
i even try to make friends on this shitty hellhole called earth but thats also going bad for me, so what do you expect when im always mentally and physically drained to the point that i cant get up in the morning?
and you KNOW this
you KNOW i have a hard time getting up in the morning and continue to let it happen
i told both of them to fuck off and went to my room
i heard them in the living room calling me a dumbass and retarded and it made me so mad to the point where i wanted to punch a hole in my door
my mom comes to my room after im finished with my mental breakdown, doesnt try to console me or say that shes sorry
she just tells me to get up and were going to do a puzzle together

my dad starts getting mad at me because im taking my sweet time trying to figure out this puzzle, and it makes me even more mad

so, my wackass opinion of the day is that im going to kill myself and that my parents should’ve worn a condom next time!