hey it’s the stick nodes only resident lizard person on this site
i have an ✨update✨
specifically a ✨mental health update✨ (yayyyy)
yeah so as bo burnham would say i feel like a “big ol’ mfing duffel bag of shit”
for those of you who don’t know (which is definitely most of you) i have anxiety!!!!! whooo!!!!
it used to be something i could manage
right now i have been having really really really bad very terrible awful severe anxiety
my anxiety wasn’t off/on at will, but i could say “shush stressful thoughts” and it would
but now it’s just become insurmountable
doesn’t have causes anymore, just thoughts that make me panic
i think of a mistake, something dumb i said, things that are upcoming, existentialism— it overwhelms me and it has no cause
maybe even when i’m just… sitting down
i have spent my afternoons laying in bed for like twenty minutes listening to my heartbeat and asking myself “oh my god why is this happening”
usually i have to be doing or thinking about something stressful to warrant that anxiety
but there’s no cause at all
and when it does happen it’s severe and debilitating, takes me awhile to snap out of it
it sucks 100%
i plan to cut back on the caffeine and sugar, help ease the nerves maybe

NOW we need some stuff in a lighter tone to live up to the “regular update” side of this post
Remember that super duper secret story project I’m working on???
no, of course you don’t
it would be super egotistical and unrealistic if i expected you to remember everything i say
HOWEVER I WILL CONTINUE TO TALK ABOUT IT because it’s fully a passion project now
it’s kinda been a passion project since like the past 4 months writing it
move aside uroboros there’s a new sheriff in town
now i have a small teaser
i present:
one of the names of the characters!!!!

chrissy

boom
there you go
anyways, i had to pop in, get some of this out and then end with the smallest teaser of all time
i’ve been nomster, the resident lizard duder