It’s been a long story.

When I first came to SN, it was like something completely new to me. I remember correctly that I joined SN 2 years and a few months ago. I learned step-by-step on a 10-year-old PC with the Android emulator. I had created a few but not exactly good achievements, kind of like the first step in outer space. Then, day by day, month by month, I started to improve my animating skills, and I found myself good at that point. But then, I felt tired of animating, since it took a lot of my time and interfered with my studying time. Struggled for a while to balance it, but then I just gave up animating 10 months ago. Honestly, when I come back to my YouTube channel, SN website, or perhaps Discord, I see SN animations and it is just like I got motivated to continue animating. But I have done many scandals to myself, getting banned from many SN-related servers for some incidents that strained my mental health much, and I started thinking to myself many times that I am a fucking weird, hypocrite crackhead on Earth who is not doing drugs but acting like I am high asf. I couldn’t change because I have left many bad impressions on others, and just like that, people hate me from server to server, or even in real life, by some people who just make a mountain out of a molehill. I cried to myself in the bathroom sometimes but didn’t want to vent to others. And just like that, I completely turned my back on animating and started drawing things. For a while, I started isolating myself from the SN community but kept in touch with some guys I know. But a few people advised me when I vented to them, I followed their advice, and they did work. Started reading books and taking up many outdoor activities for a while, I felt myself pushing out an amount of weight on my shoulder which helped me to concentrate in real life better.

Now I had a question that still bubbling in my mind.
Should I back to animating?