@tenebrus1324 w-well… it went horribly wrong.
i went to college, i’d put on my lip balm, chose my tightest trousers and made my way there. i’d been waiting so long for the moment when i could finally express myself to him and that day had now arrived
so i’m in my Maths class sitting right next to him and i decide i’d just tell him a little something. i decided as a conversation to set up the mood, i’d talk about how i’ve been single for 10 god damn years and how it’s been horrible. that’s until he says it, says about ‘his relationship’. i could imagine the sound of shattered glass as all my hopes, dreams, preparations and planning were obliterated instantly.

i said nothing, i just sat there emotionlessly. i couldn’t look at him, i felt so distraught that i couldn’t even draw (note that i draw ALL THE TIME). my teaching assistant asked me to speak to her outside as to why i’d suddenly became so dull so i told her. what’s worse is that ‘he’ actually came out at a point too and asked what’s wrong but i couldn’t say anything to him; half of me was distressed and upset while the other was vengeful and enraged.

for the rest of the lesson i merely sat there and drew Tdarchak (the demon thing with all the eyes and mouths on his face) with this bored, depressed and emotionless face.

it really hurts, seeing the one person you thought you had even the slimmest chance with simply brushes you off, completely oblivious of any affection you had for them. i’m lonely now, no one i love, no one to love me back.

why did it all go wrong!?