in four days, i’ll officially be four years old
waiting on my fifth year anniversary of doing jack shit on this site to make a good post
i also start school tomorrow, meaning ill be in high school and already have started school when i become five years old.

try not to get hit by a car challenge (level: IMPOSSIBLE)
these parents are going 40mph in a school zone
its almost always the teslas leading the good for nothings in this sea of parents who raised their children with iPad’s 💕

please put me in a mental asylum i am too mentally unstable to be walking around on this earth

what are two-three games or songs that give you the same feeling, regardless of art style, music, or plot?
ill go first

i missed training again today woohoo!!!

time to get serious.

recently, since ive been going to training for school leadership and stuff, i havent seen many of my friends
i havent seen them all summer
the only person who talked to me outside of this site has been my s/o and my parents
no one ever reached out, i always had to
almost no one even replied when i texted them
i came to this site as a last minute resort because my parents always make me feel shut out and then get mad when i dont talk
i just needed a break from that.
when i went to training on wednesday, i already saw people with their group of friends
it made me feel really left out because i sat by myself almost the entire time
there were kids i barely even knew there too, and i tried to fit in with them
i felt like i was pushing the boundaries, almost as if no one wanted me around
we got put into groups, all of that stuff
i laughed with some people, overall it was a horrible experience for me
seeing people already in groups of their friends and im just nothing

at the beginning of october of last year, i made this account
i needed a place to stay, a place where i could feel safe and know people still liked hanging out with me
i started finding friends here, got my original account back for two days before getting in trouble again
it felt like everything was crumbling down, with my parents being overly worried for me or taking out their frustration on me verbally
it still feels that way
im this close to actually either killing myself or committing a crime i know im going to regret in the future
this site is all i have now, and i hate that it has to be this was
i fucking hate this site with my gut but its all i have

my parents treat me like some kind of joke, which i am
pretty sure i was a mistake or whatever

i have a lot of mental issues which they brush off to focus on other problems, like their siblings being sick or going through a divorce instead of their own fucking child!!!
‘oh youre sensitive to sound? we’ll get you a therapist before even talking to you about it and give YOU the phone even though you have trouble talking to people you dont know’
‘oh you’re hyper? why can’t you just calm down for five seconds?’
‘why do you stay up so late? just go to sleep’
‘why are you ignoring me when im talking to you, thats rude’

proceeds to give a lecture while also insulting me :’3

‘why are you being so clingy? its not like i’ve abandoned you before’ (fun fact, all of my friends have abandoned me so that probably why but you dont fucking listen!!!)
‘stop telling me what to do, im your mother/father and you dont get to choose whats right and wrong’

also cuts me off before i can even fucking talk.

when i get my therapist back im going to be the happiest person in the world you dont even know
reminder that it took them 8 months to finally reach out to one while i was still struggling

thats all i wanted to talk about, im just rlly pissed off
have a nice night

why is everyone in spiderman miles morales above 5’7 or is 5’7 why cant they at least be 4’11 or something

mmrph

im going to start animating because I’m bored as fuck and havent done anything all summer
i am ashamed of myself

my brother and i are both history nerds and today is the coolest day ever i love learning new stuff so please bear with me

Gilbert du Motier, Marquis de Lafayette was a very popular French militant officer, you may have heard of him from Hamilton or other pieces of literature if people still actually read books and shit.
You may know him for his victor in fighting in the American Revolution, that of which housed the Boston Tea Party and the base of the plot in Hamilton. Lafayette was led by horse toothed president George Washington in the Continental Army (the army who fought against British colonization.)
He was also a big part of the infamous French Revolution.
Basically, he served in multiple allegiances from 1771 to 1830 for France, 1777 to 1781 for the U.S., continued his duties in France for one more year, left, and joined back in 1830, four years before his death.

He was already born into a wealthy family and joined the military at 13. He was made a general at 19.
He was the start of trade amongst the U.S. and France to help reduce America\’s debt…
I\’m sure we could really use some of that money right about now.
Around the same time that he embarked on trading, he joined a party known as the Society of the Friends of the Blacks, which was a small French abolitionist group who agreed slavery was bad and slaves should be free which is so COOL!!!
He also protested equal rights for people of color in that time frame, even convincing Washington to let his slaves be freed.
With money and support the from it, he bought three plantations in a small island known as French Guiana to gain property to publicise the movement.

he\’s one of the coolest french figures i know about alongside daft punk
but my brother and i talked about it and i thought it was really interesting

join sillysmp please im lonely and we need more active users

guess whos trying to watch dungeon meshi because they heard it was good so they ask for the netflix password only to be stuck on a kids account even though theyre 13 and theres literally nothing inappropriate about it (so ive heard) and now they have to go through a third-party website just to enjoy a show they think looks cool!

i dont like how many people hate on more feminine figs or activate their neurons
its disgusting and also makes the person who made the fig feel bad
i dont think that the female titan skibidi toilet whatever fig is bad, its a good fig and i think you should focus on that rather than “Bonnie, how big was the gyatt?!”
it’s annoying seeing people drooling over figs like that and others who are telling the person who made it to kill themselves
i get its a joke but it feels like humanity is falling
i dont want to have to baby kids this year its so tiring

i got into my schools leadership and i have to write newsletters and stuf and go to both orientations
literally child labor
half of the people younger than me are going to be using brain rot language and i just have to sit there and pretend I’m listening
i had to tour 5 schools last year for band (i got to skip out on some classes so its fine) and it took the kids longer to shut up, meaning our playtime was PROLONGED and we had to sit out in the freezing cold
then i would hear ‘sigma’ and ‘gyatt’ and ‘among us’ while we were waiting
some kid around 8 even went up to my friends and i and asked if we were sigmas
what has this country come to