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Hey there, I'm Mellow.

But you already knew that much from my username alone.
Today marks the 1300th day of my account existing on this website. I wish I could thank everyone I’ve become friends with individually, but I wouldn’t be able to get to the end without running out of words (or dying), so I made a little video for you to watch below.
But for now, let’s just get talking.

"Popularity" and My Growth

Oh, popularity… it’s a funny thing, if you were to ask me. I still can’t tell at all if I’m one of the ones “at the top”, and I’d love to say that I don’t care so much about it. That’s a total lie though, it’s been bugging me for ages, keke.
I suppose in a way I did want popularity in the beginning. I was never gonna get it THAT early though, because I’m no prodigy in the arts or anything like that. I didn’t want to be someone people talked about for the sake of having my name in others’ mouths. I wanted people to know me so that I could entertain them. In fact, I’ve always wanted to entertain people. I love to think of stories about these little big characters in big little worlds, and I’ve always wanted to make those worlds real, someway somehow.
And it’s only now that it feels like it’s a possibility. People like my stuff, they like to see what I’m working on and they like to know what I plan to do next. They just like to hear about my ideas and that honestly feels amazing. So with all my heart, thank you for listening to my earnest and mindless ramblings.
I’d be a nobody without you lot.

The Past and the Present

Taking a look back at my past creations makes me realise that it wasn’t only recently that I’ve started to become more confident in my abilities. It’s just that it’s only now that I’ve become aware of this confidence.
And you know what the funny thing is? I can see that some of the stuff I made wasn’t even all that terrible. It wasn’t the best, obviously, but I can see the development to where I am now, and it’s a wondrous thing. My animating skills weren’t too far off from my current prowess, and though the development from then isn’t much, it’s still there. Progress has always been progress, and baby steps are nothing to scoff at, even if they are a little embarrassing sometimes. As for my character design, object design etc… jeez, I’ve gotten so much better. It’s a bit of a shame that my skills in animation haven’t developed as much as my skills in design, so it’s a little disproportionate now. But that’s what I get for investing all my stat points in one area and neglecting all the others.
It’s strange though. I looked at those previous creations once and I felt the strangest desire to go back to those times when I was not confident with my skills. I guess I felt comfortable in the uncertainty of my progress. I didn’t know if I was doing well, and I was getting use to it. But I feel like I now know why things are changing. It’s entirely possible that I’m just now reaching standards that I didn’t know I had for myself.
But it’s just as possible that I met those standards long ago, and this new confidence in me is wiping away that insecurity.
Guys, I like the fact that you like my stuff, but I think that you’re actually making me feel confident with it too and that makes me uncomfortable lol. Like, I’m not supposed to have people that actually enjoy my content, but I can’t stop you from having your own opinions, so go off I guess.

Friendship is Real

You heard it here folks, the concept of friendship isn’t just something that schools indoctrinate into the minds of children at a very young age.
Friendship is real, and I absolutely have no qualms with it.
I would go and name every friend I’ve made and connected with this year, but I have a video making fun of them all to serve that purpose. If it wasn’t for all my friends, I’d be a lonely little kid with no one to rely on, and I’m already too close to that irl so I can’t afford to add insult to injury. And that’s where you lot come in.
..oh, you lot.
You damn lot of jackasses, I love you all.
So much stuff goes down here that I’m not even sure why I keep coming back. And to that, I say (i dunno). It’s partially just because I want to keep my streak up for the sweet catharsis of getting a trophy, but it’s also because I like talking to some of you. Most of you are just cool people in general that I would totally give my time of day to talk to, and I already do that so it must mean something, no?
Point of the matter is that friendship is real, and I can’t be more thankful for you guys proving it to me.

My Conclusion?

My conclusion? Who said anything about an end? If we’re talking about this block of text then yeah it’s, about to finish.
But as for me, I’m not going anywhere. I’m still gonna be an annoying shitposter who’s kind of a jackass, and you’re still gonna have to deal with me, like it or not.
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Everything is done. Practically nothing could go wrong except for the possibility of literally only like 10 people seeing it lmao
That\’s probably my biggest fear, hyping it up so much just to get the smallest amount of attention
Ah whatever, I did it for you guys first and foremost, and for whatever happens after everything is prepared, I\’ll accept it